"So..."

"Who cares?" That's what HR said to my department manager when she told them this past week that I came forward as being trans. It's a complete non-issue. It doesn't even register as something that could be a potential problem or anything. It's not like I had any fears of losing my job because I know that I am a valued employee.

The comment wasn't meant to offend or say that I don't matter, but it still has me feeling a bit lost. Lost in translation. So there's no "policy" to deal with this. To deal with me. So I guess I have to just wing it. I'm lucky though. At least that's how I see it. I get to educate my fellow coworkers about gender variance. I already came out to a few people that I work with and was met with surprisingly positive support. I told my supervisor last week and he was really cool with it, and he even supported me when I met with my manager to tell her. Again...a non-issue.

So, why do I feel like I'm floundering? I feel like I'm in limbo, waiting for something to happen. Waiting for a door to open, or maybe a glimpse of light showing me the way. I don't know what I'm supposed to do next. I wish that there was some sort of manual. There are no A, B, Cs to this. Nor are there any 1, 2 3s. I just have to take it as it comes. And for those of you who know me well, you know that it won't be so easy for someone like me who thrives in a structured environment.

So, here's to the future and all that it holds. My support network has grown and I'm so fortunate to have you all in my corner. Thank you for everything you have done so far and all that you have yet to do.

To read more about challenges that transgender people face, visit the Human Rights Campaign site here.