Future Planning

Today, I really questioned myself and exactly what it is that I want to do with my life. Funny, I'm 35 and I still have no clear idea of what it is that I want to do. I'm passionate about so much but can't quite nail anything down when it comes to my future. One thing for sure is that I don't want to clean mouse shit for the rest of my life!

I really want to be able to give back. I want to help others the way that I've been helped through my life. We're not talking handouts or anything here, but someone to listen and help make decisions. I've always had fairly strong problem solving skills, and I've never had any problems with getting people to open up to me. As a matter of fact, I've been told on numerous occasions that I'm a very easy person to talk to. Most of the time, that's all that people really need in their life. An outside perspective can go a very long way!

Right now, I'm taking a math course during the summer semester at school. Unfortunately, I'm there every night of the week until the end of the month. At least it's not the entire summer, and I'll be able to enjoy a couple months off from school until I begin classes in the fall. Next semester, I'll be taking Psych and Psych statistics. Let's see how I enjoy that before I start making any solid career choices.

On another note, I had my checkup with the endocrinologist the other day. He increased my T dosage, actually talked to me for a while to see how I'm doing and what plans I've made regarding my body, if any. He asked if I planned on having a mastectomy, which I do. I would like to be on T for about a year before I go and do something like that though. I want to give it a chance to work its magic on my body. Not to mention, I would like to have a nice base for the surgeon to work on. I've heard that some surgeons prefer to operate on transmen who have been on T for a while. Others, it doesn't matter either way. I just want to do what's best for my body that will have the most desired outcome. I'm very happy with myself and who I am, regardless of what others think about me and how I look on the outside. I know who I am, and I don't have anything to prove to anyone.