It's been a while since I last posted here, but I've made a promise to myself to correct that. I owe it to myself to get this stuff off my mind so it doesn't build up and tear me apart. So much has been happening with me lately that I might have to break this post up into 2 parts. I think that this post will start with the bad crap, this way you have some good news to look forward to. Deal? Okay then....
Work has been less than pleasurable lately. What with not being able to use the men's room (still!!!!!), and a less than desirable work environment, it has left me stressed out. I've been losing sleep, been cranky, and even my grades have been slipping. It's unlike me to be getting a C in principles of Marketing! I can only tell myself right now that it's just one class. It's just ONE class! It's not the end of the world.
Okay. I know I put a lot of emphasis on the men's room at work, but it really does mean a lot to me. I'm glad to not have to be stuck in the women's room, and that they were accommodating enough to put a locker in the unisex bathroom for me, but it just sucks that I'm being singled out. I'm being excluded from the male population and now the newer people who have no idea about my history as a girl are referring to me as "she" and "her" instead of using male pronouns. So, for all I know they think I'm probably a butch lesbian or something. Not that I have anything against butch lesbians, but I'm not a woman. And the thought of being with a woman just kinda grosses me out.
There's also some weird crap going on at work where everything I do gets reported. I mean, seriously??? So, I kinda blew up at one of the "supervisors" because there's a definite double standard going on. I do something and I get reported. Someone else does the same thing, and even to a greater degree, and nothing happens. I'm just tired of wearing a fucking bulls-eye on my back. I even got reported for dropping the "F-bomb" in a conversation I was having with someone else! People obviously have nothing better to do than spy on my conversations and stalk me to watch my every move. Get a fucking life people.
The love life has been sucking pretty hard too. Just when I think I might have found a guy that I'm compatible with, I get the "Sorry, but I changed my mind. Can we still be friends?" I have plenty of friends. What I want is someone to hold, love, and get all freaky with! Guess I'll just have to hold out a little bit longer on that. Good news is that I've been searching, and reaching out to new people. So far, things are looking up for me in that regard.
Now, I just need to make it through the work week!
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